Today wasn't so bad.. I felt that the bonding with new members are getting stronger.. isn't it wonderful? Praise God for the great work that he've done in me.. As i was reading one of friend's blog entry, i felt very... no words can describe the feelings now..don't worry, nothing serious happened, just that i really can't think of any words.. i'm deteriorating now.. how? sighz.. how sad..
i saw him today after service.. kind of disappointed,sad but yet with abit of hatred.. i don't know what's wrong with me now.. i'm going berserk..going insane, going crazy..alright, i'm a freak, mad girl..pls ignore me.. you'll find that i'm silly, childish.. but this is what i felt, what can you do? i cannot express myself out, or should i say, i don't know how to express out.. that's why i don't like to share my matter with you.. i'm getting sick of blogging already..i just wanna live in my world alone..
You guyz happily enjoy blogging, hanging around, making friends..Leave me alone.. i wanna focus on my own stuff..don't ever think that u have the capability to interfere, to understand me.. In fact, you have not even knew my true identity..so i don't wish to add more burdens into your life..Move On! i'd prefer to complete the race with Jesus only..
Signing Off (leaving for a long term break),
VanTaSha
(25/02/07)
人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:54 AM