I guess today(Wednesday) will be the most slackest day of all. As soon as I returned back home, I relaxed myself on the bed. Closing my eyes to rest for awhile, I actually dozed off. How wonderful, hohoho... When I'm back to conscious state, I was shocked. I woke up at 7pm. I've wasted 4 hours of precious revision time. After which, I watched my TV programme til 9.45pm. In the midst of watching TV, I had my dinner too. After my programme ended, I went back into coma (back to sleep -.-").. Once again, I dozed off and at about 1.30am, I woke up. Immediately right after a toilet break, I finally started my revision at 2am and ended at 4am. Oh no, what's wrong with me? So tired today.. It must be yesterday's wrong timing for revision. I think it's time for me to set a suitable biological clock..


Target Study Hour for Secondary Student : 20hrs/week

Monday : 4.5 hours
Tuesday : 4.5hours
Wednesday : 2hours
Thursday : ???


As soon as I got back home, I immediately threw my bulky bag right in the middle of my study room's floor area. After which, I made myself lunch. Even though it's just instant noodle, you'll never how great it'd taste like if you season the noodle correctly. It's took my about two hours to finish my lunch and rested myself by watching TV programme. Follow then, at about 5pm, I then started my revision. The tedious, tiring and stressful revision lasted me for about 4.5 hours as I started to get a humongous headaches. The sharp pain really kills my mood to further on continuing my POA practices. It was kind of a disappointment as I couldn't manage to complete that set of work, leaving lots of loopholes. But never mind, as soon as I'm back to school tomorrow, I'll try to arrange time with my teacher to solve the questions.

Target Study Hour for Secondary Student : 20hrs/week

Monday : 4.5 hours
Tuesday : 4.5hours
Wednesday : ???


And it seems like Shaun and I aren't in good terms now. He hasn't spoken to me this few days. I felt very bad. Was it really my fault? But I remembered I did apologise.. yeah, I do agree with him that all of us have our own commitments but this time round the situation is different. Hope he can understand me and I pray to God that Lord please reconcile us. Lord I cry out to You, O Lord. Come fill me with your presence and tell me what am I supposed to do right now. Lord I pray that everything come quickly to an end and strengthen the bonding between us...


Reflection of the week:

Last week of June holiday has passed and tomorrow I'll be back to school. what should be my expression? Happy?Excited? 'siAn' kind of look? Nervous?etc... I think should be neutral. haha, anyway, on Saturday something happened. it kind of impact me. Here it goes, on Saturday itself, i had my cell group meeting and this week the message speaks more of our own fears. after cg meeting, crist shared her worries and fears to me. She broke down in tears. Even though i didn't really get to see the whole picture, but somehow i think some mishap had happened to her relative. til now, I realised that it is easy to say 'alright, you know that we,human, live and sooner or later we'll die. Just take it easy and accept the reality'..yeah~, easy said than done. you will never know how heart wrecking it could be to lose a loved one. even if they're still alive but yet suffering from illness, it hurts alot in our heart to see them suffer and live in pain. I believe none of us would want our loved ones to get hurt or endure hardships. All i want to say is that you got to really appreciate the love and care that they've showered you for years..

Cherish them, love them.
不要等到不幸的事情发生才感到后悔。后悔当初没好好地珍惜他们所付出给你的爱与关心。。


*sigh*.. I don't know what to say now. today my cell group met up for dinner. I didn't turn up cause i meet up with Jane and all. I chose to meet up Jane today cause i gave her my promise that i will turn up for this gathering. but yet, my cg just don't listen to me. i knew that I'm a bit rash, i admit that I've forgotten about the gathering and agreed to go for today's dinner. I'm sorry. i felt very remorseful now. i knew such dinner is not always we have but i gave my promise 1 month ago to Jane already. I don't wish to break my promise to her. I'm sorry. I've no intention to turn down the dinner and i have NEVER felt that this spiritual family isn't important to me. IT IS important to me.. but why do Shaun still say such things?can't they just spare a thought for me?I mean, come on, so what if i missed this dinner?it's not the last dinner we gonna have,can? there's always other time, there's always fellowship...why?why...


For the past 2 days, i've been working part time at Bideas International Pte Ltd. Me and friends did lots of paperwork. Yesterday, I spotted 2 wounds on my finger. It's paper cut...showing here..

*sob Sob*..Pain..*-*



Questions, questions, and more questions.. Arggh..!
After reading that long letter written by someone, indeed truly, we have a purpose in life.
What is your purpose? Is it to study real hard and achieving good grades? Or is it to explore more and even deeper into your interest? is it the goals that you’ve planned out to help your friends who are in need? Is your purpose finding a true love, get married and start a family? Or is it to seek His love daily? Questions, questions, questions… Argh..

What is love? The definition of love is a profoundly tender, passionate affection for another person. Passionate affection? To who? To your loved ones? your families? Your friends? Or to stranger? How much percentage of passionate affection can you give to your friends? And how much does your partner deserves? I felt that to love someone wholeheartedly is a challenging matter. In order to love someone, obviously you got to know this person well enough. After been through a certain period of time, when the bondage is strong, when both of you felt that “ hey, actually we can progress even more. We can actually go beyond the friendship boundary and move on. “ besides this, love also requires sacrifice. What to sacrifice? Your precious bits of time which you felt that you can use it to do even more useful stuff. The “single” status. “I’m attached, I’m no longer single anymore. No more care-free feeling of been single.” In fact, in addition to a guy in life, which has a possibility of this person becoming a part of your family in future, are you feeling a bit of worry? (what to do with this person?). Pressurized? (what if we run out of ideas for dinner? What if we run of topics to chat?) Excited?( yippie! I can’t wait to see him!) Nervous?( what am I suppose to do? It’s my first time going out with guys so frequently..) Questions, questions, questions…. Argh..


On Friday, 15 June 07, Darling and I went out to Suntec. He brought me to that Blue Fountain which he had mentioned earlier on. I remembered very vividly, the very moment when I saw the fountain, I'm like "Awww...".. It was beautiful. I'm in aWe. Showing here are some photos taken down.

leviticus 15:19

leviticus 19:18
And the Lord spoke to Mosses, saying, "You shall not take vengeance, nor bear any grudge against the children of your people, but you shall love your neighbour as yourself: I am the Lord."

leviticus 19:28
*You shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor tattoo any marks on you: I am the Lord.*

leviticus 19:33-34
'And if a stranger sojourns with you in the land, you shall not mistreat him. But the who dwellls among you shall be to you as one born among you, and you shall love him as yourself; for you were strangers in the land of Egypt: I am the Lord your God.'

leviticus 25:35
"And if one of your brethren becomes poor, and falls into poverty among you, then you shall help him, like a stranger or a sojourner, that he may live with you. Take no usury or interest from him; but fear you God, that your brother may live with you. You shall not lend him your money for usury, nor lend him your food at a profit. I am the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, to give you the land of Canaan and to be your God."


Lost in midst of Life..

Today I tear. I have no idea what's wrong with me. My eyes losses it control. Tears flowed out as though bloods ooze out from fresh wounds, and rolled down my cheeks. Blur vision is all I could see. My heart turned sour. It's always the negative thought that kills it all. Why is Mr s.a.tan so capable of doing such thing? Indescribable. Unexplainable. I hate this. I need revelations. I need clear vision. I need guidance. I need You Lord. Mr s.a.tan is a baddy..


Yippie... Today's the second baking trial..I would say it's a much much successful one..
showing here..


Freshly Baked...



















Juicy grapes for toppings & decorations


















Ready to serve!




2 days ago, I started off my first attempt in baking cakes.. I would say it was a successful one.. I did received several feedback from people. Alright,showing here is the very last piece of my Lemon Cake.. (haha, I managed to capture this photo right before it ended up into somebody's mouth..=P)

• 50g (2oz) soft butter
• 50g (2oz) caster sugar + 1 tablespoon sugar
• 2 eggs
• 125ml milk (Best recommended: Skim/ Low Fat milk)
• 150g (5oz) plain flour
• 2 teaspoon baking powder
• Juice & rind of 1 lemon

Methods:

1. Preheat oven to 170*C (325*F)
2. Butter the cake tin.
3. Cream the butter and sugar until white and frothy.
4. Mix together with the eggs and milk.
5. Fold in the flour, baking powder and the egg & milk mixture into the bowl containing the whipped butter & sugar.
6. Add lemon rind. Bake in oven for 45 minutes.
7. Remove from the oven and soak the cake in the lemon juice sweetened with 1 tablespoon sugar.
8. Leave to cool in the tin.

-FIN-

Everything
by: Michael Buble

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And You're the perfect thing to say.

And you play your card, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
Cause you're my everything.
yeah, yeah
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La