I missed Darren Shan...


Random Day!
Oh... My dearest bloggy,
How are you these day? I am so sorry for neglecting you. Due to certain issues I had within me, I was confused. My mind was taken away by the thoughts of confusion, thus causing my physical body to become malfunction in accomplishing simple task. I definitely wanted to know what is "right" and "wrong". Somebody told me before that there is no absolute "right" and "wrong" because all of us are different in our own ways, which also included our perception in deciphering circumstances. So, should I believe and stand firm on my perception or submit myself to the norm, knowing that I would have no choice but to throw away my opinion and accept something foreign? I really have no idea which path should a person walk in times of reaching its crossroad.

There are many pathway for us to choose, some can be ideal path that would leads us to the heaven and some would lead us astray. Too bad that God has given human the privilege to choose our own path. No doubt it is an privilege, if one could not decide where to go,one would be standing at the edge of cliff, feeling as if they are risking their life to a step of faith. That is why what the norm always said, "Human are imperfect". Indecisiveness is one of the factor that contributes to IMPERFECT.

A step of faith could cost many sacrifices. If the step was taken "wrongly", you would regret of your decision and hopefully pray very hard to God for forgiveness and convince yourself to forgive yourself. You would have to bear the eyes looked upon from other people. I just don't know why but I find it hard to have that "close feeling" i used to have with my acquaintance and, perhaps, my loved ones. So, shooting back to me, am I actually the one seeing others with a pair of different eyes or am I just been cautious to myself and create boundary?

To my beloved kind souls connected to me closely, are you still there with me? Are you still as visible as before? Or are you gradually turning into a transparent soul?


-TO BE CONTINUED AS MY LIFE IS STILL RUNNING ALONG WITH TIME... -


I regret of not willing to improve my english... If only I put in a little more effort in my English Language, guess I wouldn't be struggling with fluent communication. So what can I do now since somebody said before that "It is never too late to realize your mistake." ?


God of my Forever... 


A new discovery!!

Imgaine yourself listening to Clément Philibert Léo Delibes - Lakmé - Duo Des Fleurs in the early afternoon... with a cup of Teh~ with you... Most importantly, such a beautiful piece of artwork could accompanied with MEE RUBUS!!!! Hahaha...

But seriously, I really love this song... No doubt I don't know its song title and was searching along the way, this song kept dwelling in my mind in a small elegant corner of my world... All the wonders of French culture, lovely atmostphere and classical spirit... This is what I am always look for... Do you know anyway? :)


Dear God, I know I've been naughty these days.. Please forgive me... I am in the wrong... I am so sorry... Oh Lord, please hear my prayer and please don't run away... I need you more than anything else. Lord, please come and change me once again to be an obedience child of yours...
[My little prayer from your beloved child...]




Wee~....
Yesterday was SOT graduation day!! Almost the whole cell group went for Sunday's Expo service as the graduation ceremony was combined with the usual service. Congratulations to Kelvin and Wai Mun!! I supposed it was a tough journey for him to go through 5-6 months of SOT lectures, tests and exam. Nevertheless, by God's grace, our beloved Kelvin has pulled through and became an officially 神学院毕业生！！
However, i believe that it is just a beginning for him to really excel in the marketplace. All the best for Kelvin and Wai Mun!!




As I reluctantly got up from my bed, I took a quick glance over my photo gallery in the cell phone.. These days I've been observing a common sight. I realized cats, nowadays, became more friendly towards human and wouldn't you believe, they are, at times, beautiful and adorable. Well, I guess they are up to something, if not, they wouldn't have approach we, human, for favor. Anyway, I took some photos of them. heehee...












I am super bored now!! I have been staying at home for the whole day. People started asking me why...

I said, " I was so called "grounded" at home due to poverty. How ridiculous! lolz!"

I felt so slack and bored!! i practically did nothing meaningful. I eat, sleep, play,watch and rot!! I am really enjoying my life. However, my life is going to rot even faster with air pollution and noise pollution. All the complains, common smoke we all hated the most and boredom... !!!

Anyway, my brother asked me a question which caught my attention.
"What if you ignore your darling's text message and/or call for the whole day? How would you feel? How would your darling feel? "
I've never thought of doing that unless I'm super fed up with him of certain matter or his business is no longer my business, rain or shine, I would still reply him.

My eyes has been itching these days and i still do not know the ultimate cause for it. It will never be ideal to carry on itching because i will not be able to wear my contact lens which is going to be expired in about a few days time. I will go blind!! God, i pray that you'll heal my eyes this instant!! arrgghh!

Darling has been out for lesson for the whole day. I bet it was a busy yet fruitful day for him. Jia You!

Oh ya... I've been reading Michael's blog these days. I find that he is, yet, another guy who loves to discover. His interest is to shoot random photos and find meaning in it. I commented him on facebook just a few days ago about the boundary of Sky and why older people finds it hard to excel their passion and interest. It was quite interesting though. I really enjoyed every entry he wrote and i am looking forward to the next one... I think it came out.. it is about Hiding the Truth until You Make It. Interesting fellow... ^^

It is really bored to stay at home without doing anything. However, if you have found some activities to keep you away from boredom, that will be ideal. Just like what I am doing now, it is 11:55am and I just had my breakfast, mini wok noodle. It tasted nice, alright? No doubt it is a typical Chinese food from all of our view; sometimes it is good to recover those old craving you used to have it back in the past.

Anyway, since no one is at home now, I’ll just blast off some contemporary music from my lap top. I felt so guilty for not been discipline enough to get up this morning and go for that Morning Prayer Meeting. I have skipped 2 times and I don’t wanna skip anymore. At times, my mind could think of several actions I would be able to do if I am given a chance. One example would be serving for every Morning Prayer Meeting. It is really sad that I was not given a chance to serve. I really believe that Usher ministry is the only way that can improve my discipline in punctuality, obedience to higher authority and excel/improve my communication/negotiation skills. I felt so proud to serve in the House of God’s Kingdom.

There was a time when Naresh walked me home from some event which ended quite late. During the journey, Naresh shared his vision from God to me. He mentioned about one area which I really felt encouraged to do so too. He said that he encourage all of us to pick one character in the Holy bible as your guide and follow their footstep. It could be Jesus alone, it could Daniel, and it could be anyone else except Satan lah~… At that point of time, I thought of what Pastor Tan has shared during service about Andrew, a faithful servant of God. Andrew was not so well-recognized by the public but he has a great servanthood attitude. He was all along the one doing everything he can behind the scene. Andrew’s faithfulness is recognized by God and God blessed him abundantly. I want to be like Andrew. I want to carry this faithfulness and serve selflessly. It is perfect alright when nobody sees your goodness. You wouldn’t have to be sad or resent for unthankfulness from anyone because at the end of the day, all you want is to tell God that you are there to serve His people, to really tell Him that you care about God.

Dear God,

I thank you for all the blessing that you’ve poured out in my family and friend. Lord, even as I continue to bless your name all high and tell of your goodness, I pray that you would listen to our cries too. Lord, I asked of you right now to take away all the physical pain and hurts in my friend’s family members. Even as we continue to trust you that you are our Jehovah Rapha, God of our healer, Lord you remove all the diseases in his body and made him new once again. Oh God, I believe that nothing is impossible for you for you whole our world in your hand. We surrendered our life for you… Creator of all created, I pray to you that you take good care of our body, mind and soul. I pray for reconciliation in family. I pray for healing for those who are experiencing emotional hurts. I pray for wiser decision for those who are caught in dilemma in excelling in different areas. As you said in your word that let Holy Spirit be your guide, I fully surrender my souls unto you and same for my friends out there. I thank you in advance for every vision you gave us and so long as I am alive, I will continue to serve you and love you forever more.

In Jesus almighty name I pray,

Amen.

Yippie!! [ Jasmine is delighted!(: ]

Finally, I've gotten back the Hillsong CD from Crist. I must say that i am really blessed by the songs Hillsongs has written all these while especially their latest album, This is Our God. I realized that behind every song carries a meaningful testimonies. Although these testimonies video cannot be found in the DVD, you can find it at Youtube.

So, which song impacted me the most?
I guess it should be the 'Desert Song' by Brooke Fraser & Jill Mccloghry, 'This is Our God' by Jill Mcclorhry & Reuben Morgan and 'Healer' by Mike Guglielmucci.

I remembered singing 'Desert Song' on the second day of Festival of Praise. God's anointing was so strong that I almost fell down into His presence. My tears began to flow so freely as we sang along with Jill Mcclorghry, one of the lead singer from Hillsong Church. You should view her testimony and you would know why this song meant so much to her. It meant more than words to me. I guess prioritizing God in the first place despite any hurts you suffered is the only way to get you out from misery. Here is Jill's testimony.

In addition to it, 'Healer' also carries another astonishing testimony made by Mike Guglielmucci, a lead singer from Hillsong Church whom is suffering from cancerous disease. Despite of been immobile, Mike insisted on making this LIVE video with an oxygen tank connected to him as he believes that God is our Jehovah Rapha, God of our healer. By proclaiming the grace of God, by His strips, all hurts shall be healed in Jesus name and relationship shall restored. I believe His word. I believe Him. Amen!

No words can I describe ' This is our God'. Listen it yourself...

This is our God
By: Hillsong Live
Your Grace is enough
More than I need
At your world I will believe
I wait for You
Draw near again
Let Your spirit make me new

I will fall at Your feet
I will fall at Your feet
And I will worship You here

Your presence in me
Jesus light the way
By the power of Your world
I am restored
I am redeemed
By Your spirit I am FREE

Freely You gave it all for us
Surrender Your life upon that cross
Great is the love poured out for all
This is our God

Lifted in high from death to life, forever our God is glorified
Servant and king
Rescued the world
This is our God


[God hears your prayer.. Hallelujah!]

Today was really a fruitful day for me as I served as stage usher. No doubt it was my second time serving, I was unaware of what to do as i practically did nothing on that first time. So, it was really a great exposure for me as I serve together with Mr White( don't know his name, or forgotten liao..oopss!)

I woke up at 6.45am this morning and prepared myself for duty. We did support at 8am at B4. Thank God for the manpower from Chinese church adult. Despite of different ages, we still come together as a whole and complete sufficient bulletin for today's service. When 1 or 2 come together, there shall be agreement and things shall come to pass. (:

I almost forgotten that I was scheduled to serve stage. Vanessa came to me and gave me that shock look as I have not gotten ready the water container and clean the pole pit. I quickly ran to logistic area without knowing that my HANDPHONE was left behind at the camera platform near S4&5. I realised it only when I was filling the water at artiste room. Thank God for protecting my Handphone..heehee...

My heart was beating fast when it was time for us to collect the offering. Like I say, this is my first time and moreover I'm serving the pastor sia~... *pump pump*... Thank God for protecting me from falling off the stairway at the stage... I really can never imagine how i would be if i trip right in front of pastor... (Look! that usher fell under God's anointing! WoW... ) heehee... Oh ya, Thank God for Jermaine for helping me out... And Crist to help me wash the water container. Love ya!! ^^

It is really a big breakthrough for me in ministry as a new usher. Thank God for all the opportunity and i can feel that He is challenging me to rise up soon... If I'm willing to serve, I'm willing to accept any position, any learning and any training... (:


Please don't yourself feel that you're talking to a wall... If you want me to speak or if you want to talk to me, STOP SMOKING!! SAME RULE APPLIES TO ALL PEOPLE!!! PLEASE QUIT SMOKING!! DON'T TELL ME THAT YOU'RE A SCIENCE STUDENT!! SO WHAT IF YOU'RE A SCIENCE STUDENT!!! YOU'RE JUST GOING AGAINST OF WHAT YOU'VE STUDIED AND YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TALK TO ME ABOUT SCIENCE!!

YOU'RE QUALLY KILLING ME WITH THAT POSION SMOKE!!! I DO NOT SMOKE YET I'LL DIE FASTER THAN ANY HEALTHY PEOPLE WHO DO NOT SMOKE!! HOW RIDICULOUS CAN THAT BE?? YOU'RE INDIRECTLY KILLING ME, DO YOU KNOW?

STOP IT! I DONT LIKE IT...






[ God's Love is so wonderful..]

At times, I always hear people saying like "Jesus died on the cross for our sin..." I was confused. Why would this man, Mr Jesus, bear such torment for us? He was human and he has own right not to accept this treatment,alright? However, Jesus insisted unto it.... Why??

[ John 3:16]
" For God so loved the world that He sent His begotten Son, Jesus, to died on the cross for our sin..."

I fully understand what is going on now... God love us more than anything else. He resembles a fatherly manner.... God love us to a point that he does not mind sacrificing his dearest Son to redeem our life once again... I am so touched by his Love... Thank You Jesus for bearing our sins, thus giving us a chance to live a good life again... Thank You...

[Psalm 30:12]
"To the end that my glory may sing praise to You and not to be silent.
O Lord my God, I'll give thanks to You forever. "

Back in realistic world, wouldn't you agree that our parents does the same sacrifice for their children too? Yesterday I was watching 钱不够用2 with Thomas and felt so touched by the movie. I teared.. That old lady could have received that pack of blood and heal herself... But she rejected, knowing that her granddaugther needs it more than she do, and pulled out the respiration's device... She ended off life just for the sake of saving her loved ones...

She resembles our heavenly father. God could have kept Jesus by his side and pampered him but NO. He sent his Son to the earth and made Him bear our sins... See the love he has for us?

Sometimes it is good for us to pause for a moment and look at the people around us. They could have been sacrificing for you so much so that you can live a healthy life but you did not notice the hard work they do....

Cherish your loved one and appreciate their effort for you... In future, you might start up your own family and till then, you would have made self-less sacrifices for your children and spouse, not because you're the head of the family but they are loved ones...

You love them...

God love us...


After checking for 1 day accumulation of emails, I've finally replied and deleted the respective emails. Despite expecting some pleasant news, there were some miscommunication. I would rather speak the truth and type the truth. My action could have mistaken others but my heart is always straight and clear minded. If not, God please take me away. I don't want to live anymore. I don't want to play this game anymore. You spoke a word that we are playing this game in the earthly world but we carry the heavenly rule. I am tired now, i am becoming more and more weary... God, is this a challenge or are you pulling my leg? Even as i am listening "Heart of a Servant", word seems not to satuarate into my mind that directly anymore. Break me God!! Break me! Tear me! crush me! I couldn't sustain anymore... take me away now...

W A N N A D I E N O W!! G O D, Y O U S H O U L D' V E T A K E N M E A W A Y T H A T D A Y I N T H E B U S!!