You could never believe what I’ve done just now… I actually packed that white bag of mine!! It was too messy! I could stand no longer! So, I poured out everything inside the bag and rearranged every individual into smaller pouch. Well, at least it’s neat and nicely arranged now. I wouldn’t have to panic and search for my tiny little key chain, my phone and …

I was chatting with my daughter just now on certain issues. She asked of my about calling. She prompted me about taking up Connect Group Coordinator (CGC) role… I wasn’t sure about all this thing coz it’s hard for me to make such decision. Why hard? Well, God knows what I’m facing through right now… I mean, it’s beyond words to describe my feeling though. No doubt I’m still blogging here; I can tell you that this is just the minimum you would know what my heart speaks. I could see that there are several lanes for me to choose and I still need some time to decide on the right lane.

Dear Heavenly Father,
Guide me in into the rightful path. Not by my might but by yours to be done…


Right now, I just want to focus what I’m doing now. I supposed it’s not the right time for me to do anything exceedingly now because of certain issues. I supposed it’s in disciplinary area. Oh God… Help me…









Bitchin’ Session
After so much theory and explanation, I held back for a while and started thinking.. "Have I made a mistake? I shouldn't have commented that I understand him/her situation. He's right.." Well, he is definitely right in all the theories. There are different level of friendships and the amount of trust in your friend depends on how well he cares for you and concern for you. It true that it's 2 way thingy~and i have to admit that I totally agree in whatever he/she wrote. It quite sad to know that all this time your friend is the one talking and sharing about his/her matter and never it's you because you couldn't even have the chance to interrupt. How sad... I've just experienced one. I wouldn't want to hold grudge and push any blame because she/he is my good buddy. Perhaps it has been a long day for him/her. He/she just need a pair of ears. Perhaps so... But do you know that I, too, had some issues and it's a burden too? I need to express my feelings too but will you understand how I feel? I don't know. Perhaps so... Perhaps not... Manz! the last person/thing i would ever wanted to share to is my bloggy..

Bloggy... Thank You for giving me a writing box to express my feelings. Thanks...


Great Discovery..
Today's module talks about INTERACTION. It was interesting though. Interacting with others has been my biggest barrier since young. Thank God that I've broken this barrier and moved on. I remembered back in Year 2006, I was instructed by my Cell Group Leader to do some stuff. I was supposed to collect some testimonies from my cell group member. I did it but I didn't read in details of their testimonies, only briefly scanned through it. So after 2 years, I actually check my emails and saw the testimonies again. Since I have the time, I thought I could read through all of it. Then I came across one of my ex-member's testimony. Instead of writing his testimony, he actually wrote his history. I wasn't sure if he has written the correct thing but as I continued reading the long paragraph, I was then discovered that he had ever experienced cancer before. I was totally in shocked as the friendship between the both of us were long but yet I don't know about this matter. So, I gave a short timeout for myself to do some self-reflection. I came to a conclusion that we do need interaction in order to understand each other. However, both party must be willing and sincere enough to share something that is out more than just superficial.

What do you think?


Yippiez... Finally i've completed my assigned prayer. I don't know why but I'm so excited for this coming weekend event. We are going to have an Outing @ east coast park. It believe it's going to be a enjoyful and fun time playing together with my members and friends. Oh YES!! Never to forget that W426 is going to multipy next week! I really Thank God for moving a great revival in W426. I bet all of us is anxious to know where they will be allocated to. Some of my new members actually told me that it is their first time they are going to experience multiplication and felt sad about it because we are going to be separated. So I told them how I felt when I experienced my first multiplication. To think of it, Having multiplication is a GOOD NEW and we should rejoice!! Alright?? Don't worry, we'll be able to fellowship any time, any where!! (:


Sometimes... I have the urge to blog some matters... However, the spirit, soon, dies off quickly...



Sometimes... I feel like shouting out loud to the blank space... However, people might think that I am crazy...



Sometimes... I feel like crying over nothing, perhaps something... However, people might question me...



Sometimes... I have the urge to pray strongly... However, the spirit of Laziness dominated it...



Sometimes... I felt mischievous... However, I got punished in another way...

Sometimes... Satan has overthrown me... However, God reminded me of His great LOVE...

Sometimes... I worship the Lord... However, I was down on my Knee... (He presence is too strong...)