Yesterday was just another school day for me. I Thank God once again for dragging me to school and sustained myself in lesson throughout the whole day. After school, I met uncle sean at city hall for a quick dinner. Soon enough, a person by the name of Veron came in and joined us. It wasn't pre-plan arrangement as i have no idea that she would be there with us. I was kind of lost for a moment and kept quiet throughout that short period of time. At the end of the day, I chose to leave them and go home. I guessed that was the only decision I'm left with. So, blur am I,  made my way back home and took an early rest. It seemed like Thomas and uncle sean has been clicking well with Veron. I guessed Veron and sean waited for thomas to finish his lesson and accompanied him for prata supper. Well, i guessed they have enjoyed their time, while me, staying home and been alone, sleeping. Oh well, i'm tired anyway, not finding any blame or been jealous of anybody, or been angry with the arrangement. 


Through the Rain


By: Maria Carey


Arrgghhh.....

Date:  18^th September 2008

This morning Jacky carried a heavy heart to school.  Jacky knew that he would not expect anything special to happen between Wendy and him. Jacky was furious, yet heart-broken. That conversation gave Jacky a hope to flourish a beautiful start of a romantic relationship. However, it crashes away by another conversation that was set without his consent. Jacky was totally not in the mood to attend any lesson. However, due to the fact that Jacky has been absent from class for more than 2 times, he has no choice but to attend every single lesson starting from today onward. Back in class, Jacky was restless as he did not have a good night sleep the day before today. Jacky knew that he would have to brace himself no matter what happens. So, throughout the whole day, Jacky kept silent. That jovial smile has totally wiped off from Jacky’s face…  He dared not to have eye contact with Wendy as he knew that each contact slashes his heart once again. Jacky was sad, heart-broken and have no idea how is he going to survive throughout the next 13 lessons by Wendy. He has got feeling for Wendy but it is hard for him to confess due to status differences… Love sucks… 

Date: 19^th September 2008

Jacky was physically and emotionally tired. So, he decided to skip lesson again. Jacky told himself that he must brace up for it is too childish for him to remain in this state pro-long. However, how much do you know about how Jacky felt on that day? Jacky was literately in dazed during Wendy’s lesson. He tried to force himself to get back to normal by pretending to participate in Q&A session. However, it seemed like Wendy was not interested in whatever he says. That kind of reaction was totally a heart-wreaking scene. Jacky wanted to cry but yet he couldn’t because he knew that it would be a Hu-Ha~ and people would start questioning Jacky. After school, Jacky felt hungry. So he went to W1’s food court and bought a chocolate waffle, expecting some hype-up effect from the sweet chocolate so that he can totally forget about the sour feeling. As he walked slowly towards Woodland control station, Jacky could not help thinking about Wendy, the heart-wreaking scene he suffered, the ignorance he received… Jacky was in dazed even if he was crossing the road. Thank God that Jacky was safely brought across the road… 

Rejoice?? Tada~!!
My first A-grade and C-grade for 2nd semester... >.<" Arrgghh!





Amazing Grace
How Sweet The Sound
That Saved A Wretch Like Me
I Once Was Lost, But Now I'm Found
Was Blind, But Now I See
'Twas Grace That Taught My Heart To Fear
And Grace My Fears Relieved
How Precious Did That Grace Appear
The Hour I First Believed
My Chains Are Gone
I've Been Set Free
My God, My Savior Has Ransomed Me
And Like A Flood His Mercy Reigns
Unending Love, Amazing Grace

The Lord Has Promised Good To Me
His Word My Hope Secures
He Will My Shield And Portion Be
As Long As Life Endures

The Earth Shall Soon Dissolve Like Snow
The Sun Forbear To Shine
But God, Who Called Me Here Below
Will Be Forever Mine
Will Be Forever Mine
You Are Forever Mine


Oh my goodness!! I am totally turned off...

Guess what my brother is doing right now?


Just now, my brother went over to Wei Lun's place and took some birthday wishes videos in preparation for ShiYun's birthday...

Back home, he kept repeating the video over and over again...
I was in the kitchen listening and i was like eeeeeekkk!!!!

"Hey, you're portraying a very digusting thoughts in my mind now! STOP IT!"
I mean, come one lah, it seems like you're overly obsess to Wei Lun's video... eeeekk!!

Haha, no lah~... maybe he wanted to edit it.. :P


I was chatting with one of my good friend about Liberation and we kind of had some discussion in a particular area which a few of us would talk about and that is Female Genital Mutilation (FGM). If you happened to do some reading about this issue, you would realized that FGM is still commonly practiced in this world, especially in Muslim's family. Well, my friend thought that they shouldn't allow ladies to suffer such torrent and he was quite concern with the consequences if these bunch of people continued to practice that culture. 


Last night, I was on the phone with somebody. Still, we came back to the same old topic and had serious argument. Each word that proceeded from his mouth deeply cuts into my heart as I know that God is using this way to constantly remind me that he is malfunctioned in this area. Moreover, God wanted me to know that I can never rely on him in this area anymore because he is malfunction. I felt sad,sour and sorrow. Imagine yourself turning against your loved ones with no other choices when in times of need...



Little prayer to God...

Dear God,
If this is only way you can remind me that he is no longer my supporter and comforter in times when I'm spiritually down and that in the bible it is written clearly that I should run to you instead to seek for comfort, please do so. Oh God, I remembered, long long time ago, you spoke to me of Proverbs 20:30, "Sometimes it takes a painful experience to make us change our ways", now i knew what you are trying to tell me. Oh God, will it be too late to turn my direction back to you? Will you still accept me once again for who I am? Will you still believe and trust my weary soul? Oh God, I prayed that whenever i am hurt emotionally or spiritually, I would be assured that you will be there for me and give me a hug, telling me, "It's OK,my child, fret not for i am with you. Hush.. It's going to be alright..." Will you still be there for me in times when my mind and my emotion has taken over me? Will you still be there faithfully waiting at my door? I teared, not of the tears of joy but 0f the tears of regrets. Oh God, I am sorry that I've made a wrong decision. Will you still forgive me and accept the way just as I am?
God...