Wow.... Yesterday was yet another tiring day.. And I mean PHYSICALLY TIRED! My back is aching!! AHH!!

Anyway, I went down to expo with crist in assistance to arrange the chairs transported from Hall 8. Well, the terrrace chairs was laid way before we came in yesterday. Praise the Lord for saving us some breath! But then again, it was yet another challenging task for us to arrange chairs on the floor. We got to take note of the alignment which I had been so familiar by then and the neatness of every individual rows.

There I was perspiring like a sponge been squeezed.. I thought to myself, " Aiyoo... Why do we have to arrange until that straight? Just roughly gage the alignment lor~.." Then God began to remind me that we got to be specific in everything we do for the Lord. God is a meticulous person and we should serve with our very best, even if it's just moving chairs. God is a perfect God and we should strive to live a Godly life like Him.

Anyway, on the way back home, I then realised that I've actually stood for 5hours straight without sitting! WoW... No wonder I'm having backaches now... *God, please heal me... later I'm still on service duty.. God, give me strengthen to carry on for the rest of the days..*

Anyway, that's all for today... My back is seriously aching like nobody's businesss... *sob sob*

Dear God, thank U for this day that I can serve you once again. Lord, even if it's just arranging chairs, Lord, I don't want to be half-hearted. Lord, I know that you're there for me and nothing shall be against me. Thank U for chasing away all the tiredness throughout the whole day. Lord, even as I continue to seek you face-to-face each day, Lord, you'd began to bless in specific areas of my needs. Lord, I lift up my B.S lesson into your hand, Lord, I pray that you'll bless me with an AVF book so that I'll not have to borrow other people's book and fully concentrate on You. Lord, I trust in You and I love You... In Jesus's Name, AMEN! :))


I feel like I'm an idiot, waiting for someone to come to me and said, "Oh, layhwa, you don't know this, I just thought of you in my mind.." *blush..* I guess it's time for me to move on and get my hands, my butts, my nose, my eyes, my whatever useful organ into serious work and stop thinking non-sensical thoughts. Stupid me of wasting my time away, waiting for an uncertain result. MOVE ON hwahwa! Life's great with GOD! AMEN! maybe I should be the one telling that person I misses him.. hehehehe.. Darling~... :P

These days has been a hectic moment for me, perhaps everybody in My Life's committee. We met up almost once a week to do up the daily devotional, My Rhema, song sheet etc. Yea, though we met obstacles and disagreements and perhaps mistakes after printing out the final draft, what matters most is the bonding and love we've created upon each other. I love everybody and most importantly, I love GOD for putting us together!
P.S to committee: Really appreciate your efforts guys! Let's jia you and stop putting blames on yourself coz we work AS A TEAM! AMEN! ^0^

These days, I felt that God has been reminding me about developing and maintaining good relationship with each other. Just like what Sharon has shared about the story of Mary and Martha, Martha was all-time busy serving the Lord and totally forgotten that what matters most is the intimate relationship with Him. Yea, God sees your fervent heart that you really want to serve Him but like what Wanyun shared during leader's meeting as well, you can never lead your disciples when you have no insights of their life. Simple to put, you have no connections with them. I really believe that through genuine fellowship and quality time spend for each other develops genuine relationship. By the time when failure or discomfort sets in, you can simply sense it. All you need is to be open and willing to share. I am willing to spend quality time with you, sharing some secrets with you, but are you willing?

Authority For Victory (AFV)'s first lesson was fantastic! I was totally blown away by just the mere first lesson! It talks about Spiritual Warfare. God is our strong warrior, He is also a good fighter! When God created us, He wouldn't exempt us from evil. In fact, He planned our life to be run in this way. Definitely in life, we would face that darn devil. We may feel threaten by devil's force but it is also, at the same time, that we got to be spiritually prepared! We may not win through our physical defense,but spiritually, God helps us to defend and fight with the devil! Don't ever think that God is a fighter, thus He's scary. NO WAY! The reason why God fights for us is because He loves us more than anything else. In John 3:16, God gave His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, to sacrifice on the cross so as to cleanse and redeem us. God's love for us is unconditional and I'm really glad that I've found Him. God is really an excellent role of example for us to let us know the importance of LOVE. Let's be genuine towards each other despite the fact that devil's going to come in and destroy our faith and trust for each other! :))

And I can't wait for time to pass so that I can meet my friends again to fellowship with them! I'm heading to expo later(27Feb09)... SMS me @ 91170802 if you're heading there too! Let's meet up for dinner! :D



The time is 1.23am and surprisingly I’m still awake. Praise the Lord that I can still hang on to this moment. My eyes grow weary and tired each minute ticks and my vision is getting blunter and blunter but still, I wanna try blogging my thoughts out.. (Although I know that it’s impossible to write out 100% correctly..)

Anyway, I came to realisation that I’ve actually stayed in NAFA for more than 10 hours. I’ve not done such a thing to my own school! That’s awesome.. hahaha.. I try to laugh.. But I can’t bring myself to laugh genuinely anymore. I tried to smile brightly when laughter falls into place. After that every second, I’m back to normal. It’s easy to put on a fake smile but it’s equally easy to drop the arch off that cheek. I wondered who will notice my face when I performance magic… they should present me an award for been able to change my face that fast…

As I was doing My Life’s daily devotional in photo-shop, it may seem that I’m really concentrative in my work. But you can’t see what’s inside my mind. Hallelujah for God’s creation… Only the creators get to see what others don’t. too bad.. so sad… lalalalalala… If you want to know, ask me lots of questions and spend some quality time with me. One-on-one basis. No outsider intrusion. You might get 70% of my fruits.

Many said that Dixon has a weird kinda approach.. hahaha.. I agree to that too but I have no issues with that, in fact, sometimes when I need such crazy craps to bring me away from deep thoughts, he has successfully done so.. Thanks for sharing his crappy-ness and ‘joy’.

-FIN-


Now listening: Take All of Me by Hillsongs United..

" Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me..."

How i really yearn and cry out to God....
Day and night, I cry out from you, O Lord...

I love You so...
And I give all my heart to say...
I NEED YOU HERE... MY EVERYTHING.... O LORD...

O God, hear my cry.. My soul cries out to You.. Can you hear me???
God, I don't want to be where I am now.. It's terrible.. It's painful... Get me out of this state now.. I no longer want to put on that fake smile.. I want to my genuine.. I want to be genuine towards to my action.. I want to be spiritually discerning... Oopen my heart if that is the only to see how my heart bleeds badly now... O Lord, pls down load my weigh of stress and confusion and up load new vision and goals. God, i am not satisfied of where I am now! Get ME OUT OF THIS PLACE NOW!!

I need You, Lord...
Come, please, come to me....

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone   While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Looked down on
Commitment
Death
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Well, It's time to blog... >.< If not, it's going to be rusty...

Anyway, these days I've got myself quite involved in the CG.. Shaun has chosen some of us in CG to be My Life's committee and I'm one of them. I feel that through such arrangement, God has really open doors of opportunity for me to bond very well with my member and I really thanked God for that. So, one particular day before SMS-ing Yong Hui about my decision, I begin to pray about my calling AGAIN. It seemed that my initial calling might be making a dial to another receiver... hmmz.. How should I put it?

I began to commit myself more into CG and I really enjoy doing every single task given. No doubt I screwed up some task and got harsh feedback, I didn't hold grudges because I know that I'm learning something and I was,indeed, in the wrong to produce another thing. I began to be able to learn alot, and soon enough, through these period of working together with CG, my bonding with them gets stronger. My faith level had also begun to rise. Just last Friday, God began to move my heart and i shared a short rhema word to the CG during worship.. It was tremendous.. This was my first time..... It was,indeed, really a breakthrough for me!

At the same time, Crist also began to challenge me to join Logis department. Yong Hui even asked about it but I told him to give me some time to consider first. I hesitated for a moment. I was confused of which way to go.. Reflecting back on my progress in ministry, I believe that I've risen up well to become an IC. However, everything seemed to be at pause for a moment while I can still see others rising up so quickly. What's wrong with me? Have I not progressing well? Do I still have the ability to shoulder heavier responsibility? Am I starting to focus on other stuff already? have my calling been changed to....?

Yesterday, I did something..
I've finally SMS-ed Yong Hui back about my consideration of been a part of Logistic Department from Usher ministry.
I don't know if I've done the right thing but like what I told Crist in the earlier SMS, I'm all-time ready, just that I need some strong affirmation...
Anyway, no harm giving it a try.. but no guarantee that I'll root myself in ministry..
Well, I shall wait and see what's the outcome..


"Dear God, please reveal yourself to me.. Show me your light that guides me to your calling... God, I don't want to stay in the midst of confusion. God, I pray that you began to direct me... Holy spirit, I pray that you allow to be so sensitive towards your small voice... "


haha.. I've just came back from morning prayer meeting. God has really strengthen my physical body to wake up everyday so early to attend morning prayer meeting. Today's the 4Th day of prayer meeting, so far, I've only missed out yesterday's evening prayer meeting. Anyway, it is not about the attendance but the genuine heart matters.
Each morning as I wake up, I thank God that I'm still alive to praise your name,almighty high! ^-^

2 days ago, as I was serving for evening prayer meeting, I met this congregation. She approached me to enquire about how to obtain the stamps she missed out. I was like telling her that she can get those stamp from the receptionist after PM. But she seemed inconvinced by my words. I mean, come on, does all those stamps more important than coming to church to pray, to see God face to face and to saturate into His presence once again? You tell me then...

I really believe that even as God sees our genuine heart, our genuine cry out to the Lord, God would just began to bless us so abundantly in the areas of our need. This morning, I was pressing very hard into His presence. No doubt I managed to flow, however, most of the time I was either distracted by my works, worries or simply side-tracked. What's wrong with me?? I also don't know. Songs like Sanctuary, God of my forever has really touched my heart back then when I was emotionally down. God brought me out of misery through His promise. I'll never forget His love..

I pray to God that lord you began to show yourself to me, that you come into my heart and cause me to be so sensitive towards Holy spirit. Day and night, I cry out to you O Lord, I want more of you Lord...

In all my life
Be glorified
With Christ in me
No longer I

So take my all
consuming fire
Your light in me
I'll let it shine...

Charles Darwin's relationship with his children...

"However hard my father was at work, we certainly never restrained ourselves in our romps about the house, and I should certainly have thought that the howls and screams must have been a great annoyance; but we were never stopped." "Charles and Emma's approach with their children was undemanding and liberal; they saw little value in discipline and learning by rote, but wanted to encourage their children to think for themselves." "Our father and mother would not even wish to know what we were doing or thinking unless we wished to tell." But if one of the children did want to tell, Charles would make them feel that their opinions and thoughts were valuable to him. "He cared for all our pursuits and interests, and lived our lives with us in a way that very few fathers do ... He always put his whole mind into answering any of our questions."


emo one corner liao... >.<

Yesterday went out with Crist and Cheryl... Awww... so missed cheryl.. Haven't been seeing for quite some time after that home visit.