Believe In Your Heart..
Sunday, March 29, 2009

Thank God for a wonderful session with Pastor Phil Pringle today. No doubt it was the same message as yesterday, it was indeed, yet another revelation to me. Wouldn't you believe that each time when you chose to make a decision to look upon God, God is going to bless you exceedingly abundantly! Whatever circumstances that you are going through now, God knows it from the very beginning and God definitely has a solution to it! Hallelujah! Praise God in advance for all the wonderful works that He's going to do in me!

Thereafter, i also thank God for the time of fellowship with crist just now. No doubt it was only a short period of time, it was, indeed, a fruitful chat-chitting session accompanied with a some window shopping at Daiso, SPOTLIGHT!, LJS, Carrefour etc. Thank God for reconciliation in this friendship! Thank God for kicking it a start! :]

Tomorrow, My Life committee is going to meet up again to do the devotions. I felt bad for turning it down as I've got an appointment already. Perhaps I will drop by in the evening to find them. ><

Till then, I had a wonderful and comfortable day. Back in the past, the moment when I got alone, I would always be feeling uncomfortable and find all means to get myself busy. However, the old 'layhwa' has pass and new 'layhwa' has formed. I can't believe that I could survive without complaining and panicking after waited for crist for so long. I believe that I've got nothing to worry about and even as I know that if I'm physically alone, God is always 24-7 spiritually there for me! :]
Hallelujah~!

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
9:15 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009

Praise the Lord! It's 6.16am in the morning and I've finally woke up!
I couldn't accept the fact that despite all determination, I still couldn't wake up as preferred timing. Now that I am awaken, I shall plan out my schedule for the day.

Now - 8am
free time.
8am - 10am
Bible reading session with the Lord.
10am - 12noon
Do laundry.
12noon - 1.15pm
Continue Bible reading session with the Lord.
1.15pm - 1.45pm
Preparation to go out.
1.45 - 3pm
Travelling (Read daily devotional message).
3pm Onwards...
Bugis, then Prayer Meeting @ Sherrie's house (:

-FIN- ^-^

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
6:16 AM

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Nothing much has happened today because I've got to stay home the whole day today. But it was indeed a fruitful time spent with the Lord. I began to read upon His Word as I've done for the past few days. God has been a great God! Throughout the whole day, my mind was renewed each time when I read the scripture. There were times when I read through certain scriptures which led me to think even deeper. Praise the Lord! No doubt I tend to ask God alot of questions each time when i came across these "weird" verses, God was great enough to patiently explain to me. :)

Anyway, I really thank God for keeping me at home. At least I can recover the habit of reading bible consistently again. Praise the Lord! Tonight,I am going to cover the book of Joshua! And tomorrow I'll kick start on the book of Judges! :]

No Longer I, but Christ in Me! Whatever circumstances I am in right now, I shall be strong and of good courage for God is with me all the days of my life!
AMEN! :))

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:42 PM

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

"Fasting in Ramadan" by Alfian Sa'at


God what am I
But a pale copy
Of the true ascetics?
A lesson in humility,
Only under such heat, such thirst,
Does the soul realise
The body is just a mirage.

Forgive me, God, for
Crossing the dates on the calendar,
Numbering thirty days of abstinence;
For observing how much
Temptation surrounds me.
The tap's mouth glisetens even though
It is only my eye that has polished it.


And it is only my longing
That saturates the colour of apples,
That turns a passing scent into form,
Like breaths sculpted in cold weather.


Feasting before dawn.
Each sunrise I fade,
Reduced to a mouth, source
Of desire, of the original sin.
And at each sundown, a glassful of water
Travels down my gullet And turns me solid again:


God, when you breathed life
Into the first man, was that
What answered his craving?
Or did he know then, that
As you fed him, you also gave him
Hunger, a crumb of that world
That you will cast him down into?


人之初性本善..("v")("v")
5:56 PM


" The winter of death numbs a lover's pain,
The autumn of dreams lies awake in vain,
The summer of life sings its passing song,
And spring comes again... with courage to hope, and go on."

Cool! I got from one of the brochures on my table. It somewhat depicts a scenario of the relations between human emotions and the mother nature's season.

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
4:32 PM

Friday, March 20, 2009

When You Say You Love Me
By: Josh Groban

Like the sound of silence calling,
I hear your voice and suddenly
I'm falling, lost in a dream.
Like the echoes of our souls are meeting,
You say those words and my heart stops beating.
I wonder what it means.
What could it be that comes over me?
At times I can't move.At times I can hardly breathe.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
For a moment, there's no one else alive

You're the one I've always thought of.
I don't know how, but I feel sheltered in your love.
You're where I belong.
And when you're with me if I close my eyes,
There are times I swear I feel like I can fly
For a moment in time.
Somewhere between the Heavens and Earth ,
And frozen in time, Oh when you say those words.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
For a moment, there's no one else alive

[bridge:]
And this journey that we're on.
How far we've come and I celebrate every moment.
And when you say you love me,
That's all you have to say.
I'll always feel this way.

When you say you love me
The world goes still, so still inside and
When you say you love me
In that moment,I know why I'm alive

When you say you love me.
When you say you love me.
Do you know how I love you?


人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:19 AM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Ahhh!!! I can't believe it!! It chipped offf!!! ><




人之初性本善..("v")("v")
5:04 PM

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

It's the 4th time liao...

Thank God that I've survived and made it through my way to riverwalk. God, I really thank you for healing me when I got black-out today.

*Commonwealth Station*
I knew that I would've fainted in the MRT train just now but mariculous,my body withstand it.. However, my mind and vision totally went blank.. My ears were blocked by pressure and were deaf... I can't breathe easily... I couldn't see... Nor could I hear any conversation those ladies who stood in front of me... I knew that eyes were on me but i just couldn't see... Dizzy spells started to ring and got my head spinning round and round in darkness. Thank God for the hand rail beside me. I felt as though it was His hand, holding on to me...

*Next stop, Red Hill... *
My vision started to recover.. but I was still deaf and couldn't breathe easily... I then grabbed the hand rail with both hands,thinking that my physical body is the only source of energy for me not to collapse.. was still struggling my way to riverwalk... ><

*Outram Park station...*
Finally, i managed to sit for awhile after alighting from train... feeling much better though..But still in the midst of outbreak of cold-sweat.. Then started to stand up and walk over to NEL to Clarke Quay... Black-out strucked the second time.. and I caught myself breathless again.. ><

*Clarke Quay...*
Met sean... Had my first meal of the day after breaking fast. Feeling much better..
But I've simply been horrified by this encounter. I shouldn't be surprise because it isn't the first time but I feared for death... I still have got lots of things yet to accomplish... ><

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:45 PM

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

*Can't read my...
Can't read my...
No he can't read my POKER FACE!!...
(She's got to love nobody)*

LOLZ.. Nice song~!!! Can't get this song out of my head now.. LOLZ! :]

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
3:13 PM


From bowen: Isaiah 40:30-31 (NIV)

February 24 (Baptism of Holy Spirit)
1. The baptism of Holy Spirit gives you the power to be an effective witness.
- Jesus expects us to speak in tongues, cast out demons and lay hands on the sick to heal them.
- to move into 'Power evangelism'

2. the baptism of Holy Spirit purifies you
- The fire of the Spirit will burn away whatever that is useless in your life. Only the good will remain and be strengthened.

3. The baptism in the Holy Spirit opens up God's truth and revelation to you.
- been able to quote to scriptures from bible effortlessly
- understand the revelation it contained
- expound it boldly on it to the great multitude

4. Opens the door to the supernatural realm
- 8 spiritual gifts from Holy Spirit

5. Holy Spirit brings divine guidance and order in your life.
- life will be characterized by divine purpose, discipline and structure.

February 25 (Leaders)
- Leaders often has to endure the disparagement of those from his household, with whom he grew up with.
- Tolerate the criticism
- Endure hurtful remarks with the spirit of meekness
- Leader cannot fail
- Couldn't crack up
- Couldn't give up
- Always there to pick up whatever to piece them up
- Can't walk away
- Even though leaders are been personally attacked or betrayed, he/she must keep on forgive and help them.
- Holds the heavy responsibility to see and take care every lives throughout everything.
- Do not lead their sheep into a wrong doctrine
- test the 'fruit' test (Self experience)
- lay down his life for his sheep. (When 1 lost, Jesus would find it until it was found..)

February 26
- We put our trust in the Lord
- We will win the fight PROVIDED if we are willing to fight
- There is no greater fear than fear itself
- God says, " Fear not, for I'M WITH YOU. " (Is 43:5)
- God is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us. (Eph 3:20)

February 27 (Making a difference)
- Rebellion is a serious attack, not only to Moses, BUT against God himself.
- Simply got to love God and love people.

E.g Aaron
- limited abilities
- marked with public failures
- BUT he caught the fire of compassion...
- stood between the living and the dead
- Made a difference
- God was astonished by His act

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:12 AM

Friday, March 13, 2009

歌曲:像我这样的
艺人:何耀珊

像我这样的
你会不会
来爱我
像我这样的
不够完美洒脱
我为爱前进
梦想路程
却满是伤痕
不愿退缩

Take a look at me
我不松开手
在失意的时候
用音符
唱着我
的美丽哀愁

Take a look at me
吶喊的心头
彷佛再说
黑白对错
微笑面对我的生活

有空就来歇歇脚吧~
曾经有过为梦想
失去选择
也曾走过不被祝福 热烈伤痕
到现在我还是我
为爱的执着

Take a look at me
我不松开手
在失意的时候
用音符
唱着我的
美丽哀愁

Take a look at me
吶喊的心头
彷佛再说
黑白对错
微笑面对我的生活
对我来说
简单生活
会是我想要的
结果

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:41 AM

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Isaiah 41:9-11 (New International Version)
9 I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, 'You are my servant'; I have chosen you and have not rejected you.

10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

11 "All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish.

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
4:10 PM

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

As I was reading one of my friend's blog, I kinda understand how he felt when 'He thought he was special'. Not on cat's behavior, but I realized that in order to become his/her special ones, you couldn't assume that you are one, but you got to listen it from that person's mouth. I believe a true confession shall reveal it from his/her mouth rather than spirit-to-spirit connection. (too extreme for me to discern anyway..)

All along, I should've recalled what Vanessa has taught me the other day..
"You think, I thought, then who to confirm??"

Very true about the fact that nothing sets right if no affirmation is made upon you. Just like God's covenant over Noah that He shall not destroy any species kind and shall set rainbow to symbolize His covenant.

I literately hate the fact that people can go against their word even when they say that their word is their bond. I mean, if you're not certain of anything, just come clean. You wouldn't be persecuted by uncertainty, well, at least you tell the truth, right?

God has given us the freedom to makes choices and I have no comments for that because He gave the privilege to me too. However, what do you really meant by freedom of choice? Does that include going against your own words? That's disgusting! You can't even be true to yourself. Then, all the more this kind of person should rely unto God for guidance and HELP!!

Anyway, it's a waste of time for that person as well. I was once asked upon questions about Life. One told me that life is meaningless, at the end, we'll still die, so what's the point of living Life? I agreed that at the end, we'll still die, however, the ending point is not important. What's important is the process of Life. It may seemed dull and bored, but Life is an on-going process. Things change along the way and you might expect miracles and countenance that you've not been through. So, I believe that we should live up the standard of optimism and lead a fruitful life.

Enough said, if not, my bitching and enlightenment session will go on and on and on and I'll turn into a disgusting bitch as well.

Much love,
hwahwa [:

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:53 AM

Friday, March 06, 2009

Why do we get so bounded by pledges, commitment, promise, agreement? What happens if we met another situation which is more loving and caring, to such extent that you can fully entrust your life into and eager to know the future progress? Why is it that alternative solutions are more tempting as compared to the current ones? What happens if we chose to break free from pledges, commitment, promise and agreement and follow our heart? Who is going to benefit? Who is going to get hurt? Who is going to receiving blessings upon blessings upon your decision? Who is going to feel guilty upon decision made? Who is going to bear the consequences?

I thanked God that he gave me the freedom of choice. However, is it really that care-free after all?
I hear people saying that "I would lay down my life, and fully serve you til the ends of the world..." and when that kind of temptation comes and they've fallen short, people then said "Sorry God.. Forgive me.."

Wouldn't it be wise to reject the offer in the first place?

O You wise servant who chose to reject and cling unto God.... Your love sacrifice has been recognized and you shall be blessed for He is the Lord, your God. Amen!

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:29 AM

Thursday, March 05, 2009

Today was indeed, yet another fruitful day as I've got through AFV lesson 2. Teacher Darren explained about the Rebellion of Lucifer and so happened that certain pointers nailed my weaker zone.

"Rebellion is the will set in opposition to God! And PRIDE is the strength of sin."

In the beginning, why God create Satan?
- Satan was once an archangels in Heaven over worship. However, Satan thinks that he can overthrone God Almighty, thus, oppose God's power.
- Satan is thus, known as adversary/ opposer
- If God loves us, why did he still release Satan to tempt us?
- God did not control or force us to do things, God gave us the freedom of choice.

Thereafter, there were some issues Teacher Darren brought up just now regarding about Pride. He also shared many case studies during lesson and I realised that I could fit into one of it. oh yea! I remembered, it was CASE 2. It clearly defines my current situation now. I could have been proud and aggrogant towards my emotional thoughts and feelings and totally neglected my soul and body. Consequences of too much "I"? I've experienced it... And it's time to put it to an end.

1John2:16(NASB)
For all that is in the world, the lust of the flesh and the lust of the eyes and the boastful pride of life, is not from the Father, but is from the world.



Dear God, I pray that you come into my life once again, to restore the vision you had for me. Lord, I don't want to be led away by Satan anymore. I don't want to be led away by sense-less thoughts. God, please help me and pull me out of this misery now...


人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:34 AM

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Verse of the Day
Isaiah 55:8-9 (New International Version)
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts..."

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
1:38 AM


I feel that now is really the time for me to move on...

I had enough of all this random nonsense and I want to stop it now! This instant!!
I had enough of been a silly fool, acting blur and innocent..
I had enough of seeing what I don't want to see and I want to re-direct my focus onto some meaningful aim.
I had enough of all the wounds that unknowingly appeared on my legs.
I had enough of those stupid giggles and joy.
I had enough of my foolish craps.
I had enough of dropping hints over and over again when it's inhumane to guess the answer.
I had enough of trying hard to shield myself with different masks.
I had enough of stupid headaches!
I had enough of that darn devil that causes me to be so disgusting.

I am so disgusted by my foolish act and I want to get down to serious business!
I do not want to do the talk without action!
With faith and God's grace, I want to pick myself once again and bear good testimonies to all whom has fallen!
I want to cling unto God I am falling..
I don't want to walk alone but I want to walk side-by-side with Him throughout the valley of darkness.

I was once told by someone that if you're going to depend on your physical strength, you shall perish in no time to come. But, if you cling unto God, with His divine power, He shall protect and strengthens me all time daily! Amen!!

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!! I'M GOING INSANE NOW!

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:56 AM

Monday, March 02, 2009


Take All Of Me by Hillsong United/More Than Life - Hillsong - United/More Than Life


I love You
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
Take all of me

You broke the night like the sun
And healed my heart with Your great love
Any trouble couldn't bear
You lifted me upon Your shoulders

Love that's stronger
Love that covers sin
And takes the weight of the world

I love You
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ take my life
take all of me

You stand upon mountain tops with me
With You I walk through the valleys
You gave Your only Son for me
Your grace is all I rely on

I love You so, and i give up my heart to say
I need You so, my everything
Oh God

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
5:54 PM


Checking at myself now..

1. a cut on my left knee
2. 2 blue-black wound side by side on my right knee
3. a cut on the side of my left knee
4. a small little scratch on the right leg
5. Eczema condition (never-ending)

gosh... what's wrong with me? How come there are so many cuts and bruise on my legs? How come I cannot feel any pain? Have I been too random to the extent that I can't feel anything now? I pray to God that I'll not hurt anybody with my words.. Senseless thoughts though... Pardon me...

Last night I was just talking to somebody whom i seldom spoke to over the phone and I really thank God for giving me this opportunity to chat with him. No doubt we both live under different circumstances, God managed to bring both of us together that night to talk for almost an hour long. God's miraculous work is wonderful and we should continue to trust in the Lord.

And, I was just talking to some of you guys about going out and sad to say, I am officially broke these days. Sorry for rejecting any meet-ups because once I step out of the house, I got to pay for this and that, transports, foods etc. Whatever you think of.. I got so troubled with spending and sometimes I just feel like locking myself at home and play safe. But I know that it's not going to work at all. God is really is a funny person and when He speaks of something to be done, none of us can stop Him to proceed.

hmmz.. what else? Oh yea.. I've once again screwed up last week's service duty. I thought that I can manage and was really calm at that time.. But it seemed that all hell broke loose and I was shaken.. I believe that I've not really encouraged my Alpha ushers and screwed up everything again.. *sighz*... what a loser... *big L on my forehead*



1 Timothy 3:1-10, The Message
If anyone wants to provide leadership in the church, good! But there are preconditions: a leader must be well-thought -of, committed to his wife, cool and collected, accessible, and hospitable. He must know what he's talking about, not be overfond of wine, not pushy but gentle, not thin-skinned, not money-hungry. He must handle his own affairs well, attentive to his own children and having their respect. For if someone is unable to handle his own affairs, how can he take care of God's church?

The same goes for those who want to be servants in the church: serious, not deceitful, not too free with the bottle, not in it for what they can get out of it. they must be reverent before the mystery of the faith, not using their position to try to run things. Let them prove themselves first. If they show they can do it, take them on.




人之初性本善..("v")("v")
5:13 PM


Alright!! I've bought MYSELF AVF book..
I'm really looking forward to the next lesson on Wednesday, Riverwalk @ 7.30pm.

So, anybody wanna join me?? hahahahaahaha... ^-^

Date Due: 4th March 2009
Time: 7.30pm
Venue: Riverwalk, L2

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
3:12 PM

Sunday, March 01, 2009

Fastest Finger First!!!

Anybody wanted to bless ME with an AVF bible study book? Hwahwa is really looking forward to next lesson. But she'll cry if she's going without a book AGAIN!


Date due: 1st March 2009
Due Time: 6pm

Fastest Finger First!!!

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:51 AM

Welcome
1 John4:12-13
No one has ever seen God; but if we love one another, God lives in us and his love is made complete in us. We know that we live in him and he in us, because he has given us of his Spirit.

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Jasmine a.k.a Hwa姐
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