29Th December 2007 was W426's thanksgiving day. When we talk about thanksgiving, people should ought to be joyful and thankful to surrounding friends who had helped them and encouraged them through out those period of difficult times. Thanksgiving session should serve as a time whereby we APPRECIATE each other's presence and favours of whom has given to you. Anybody wanted to know about my feeling for thanksgiving? I felt sad. Perhaps "disappointed" should be the ideal word to use. I felt so unappreciated. On the surface, people may claimed that "...everything's alright. You're doing just fine..." However, I beg to differ. Seriously, I could sense it. You can say it's that devil's trying' to stir my heart or whatsoever but I felt this uneasiness dwelling in my heart. It just couldn't fade off gradually. It became stagnant. Why? Why?... I gave myself some time to think.. Sad to say, my mind failed to give me an answer. What is the ultimate reason for been like this? Why wasn't I been treated like another other people in the group? Why did people STILL categorised me as QUIET? I was telling myself, " LOOK! I've made an effort to change myself. Even I could feel the changes. Why aren't they felt it too?" I felt so unhappy. If only I could just stop hiding my emotions and heck care about surrounding affair and give myself a good crying session in front of all people to ease this uneasiness... ...
人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:52 AM
25th December 2007Today is Christmas day. i supposed most of us is hanging out at Orchard, watching the dazzling lightnings and chilling out with their friends now. For me, I have no plan. Nobody wants to date me out, (how sad...)..I was literally staying at home for the whole day, practically doing nothing meaningful. Don't know whether is it me or is it that my phone breaks down, it was literally silence. No phone calls.. No ringing sound.. How sad.. But anyway, Christmas should be a season whereby we commemorate Jesus's birth. Christmas is not about hanging out, partying all night long... Christmas should be a sacred day. Few minutes ago, I was chatting with someone online. He experienced the same situation as me. No programme, nothing to do.. He felt sad and lonely. (Perhaps I should too.. hahaha).. Parents are not around.. His buddies are out with their girlfriend.. Left him alone.. At that moment, I couldn't encourage him much as i was facing the situation as him. If I were to say all those thing, it's equivalent to telling myself.. So, no point..Anyways, you guys enjoy yourself.. Have a joyful day!Merry Christmas.. =]
人之初性本善..("v")("v")
7:38 PM
Recent Updates :)Ever since my holiday started, life have been so exciting yet thrilling. Currently, I am working as a Customer Service Assistant in a mobile company. I would say I'm really blessed to know new people from this working world. These people serve as a very helpful hand in times when
I'm in the midst of trouble handling customer. Even though such job only require answering incoming calls,updating some
datas etc, it IS challenging.
Thank God for placing people like my Boss and some other colleagues in my life. They are really of good help to me. In times when
I'm not sure in certain areas, my boss would patiently coach me, explaining every bits of details to me, ensuring that at the end of the day, I left the company with no doubts.
Thank God for staying by my side when i was going through the first few days of work. This was my first time exposing to such job and fear surrounds me everywhere I go. God's
presence kept me safe and claim, and he told me,
"Beloved Child, Do Not Be Afraid For I Am With You...You Are Not Alone".. and Yes Lord, I know that you're with me...Thank You...
人之初性本善..("v")("v")
10:09 PM