Believe In Your Heart..

Well, It's time to blog... >.< If not, it's going to be rusty...

Anyway, these days I've got myself quite involved in the CG.. Shaun has chosen some of us in CG to be My Life's committee and I'm one of them. I feel that through such arrangement, God has really open doors of opportunity for me to bond very well with my member and I really thanked God for that. So, one particular day before SMS-ing Yong Hui about my decision, I begin to pray about my calling AGAIN. It seemed that my initial calling might be making a dial to another receiver... hmmz.. How should I put it?

I began to commit myself more into CG and I really enjoy doing every single task given. No doubt I screwed up some task and got harsh feedback, I didn't hold grudges because I know that I'm learning something and I was,indeed, in the wrong to produce another thing. I began to be able to learn alot, and soon enough, through these period of working together with CG, my bonding with them gets stronger. My faith level had also begun to rise. Just last Friday, God began to move my heart and i shared a short rhema word to the CG during worship.. It was tremendous.. This was my first time..... It was,indeed, really a breakthrough for me!

At the same time, Crist also began to challenge me to join Logis department. Yong Hui even asked about it but I told him to give me some time to consider first. I hesitated for a moment. I was confused of which way to go.. Reflecting back on my progress in ministry, I believe that I've risen up well to become an IC. However, everything seemed to be at pause for a moment while I can still see others rising up so quickly. What's wrong with me? Have I not progressing well? Do I still have the ability to shoulder heavier responsibility? Am I starting to focus on other stuff already? have my calling been changed to....?

Yesterday, I did something..
I've finally SMS-ed Yong Hui back about my consideration of been a part of Logistic Department from Usher ministry.
I don't know if I've done the right thing but like what I told Crist in the earlier SMS, I'm all-time ready, just that I need some strong affirmation...
Anyway, no harm giving it a try.. but no guarantee that I'll root myself in ministry..
Well, I shall wait and see what's the outcome..

"Dear God, please reveal yourself to me.. Show me your light that guides me to your calling... God, I don't want to stay in the midst of confusion. God, I pray that you began to direct me... Holy spirit, I pray that you allow to be so sensitive towards your small voice... "

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