Believe In Your Heart..

Checking at myself now..

1. a cut on my left knee
2. 2 blue-black wound side by side on my right knee
3. a cut on the side of my left knee
4. a small little scratch on the right leg
5. Eczema condition (never-ending)

gosh... what's wrong with me? How come there are so many cuts and bruise on my legs? How come I cannot feel any pain? Have I been too random to the extent that I can't feel anything now? I pray to God that I'll not hurt anybody with my words.. Senseless thoughts though... Pardon me...

Last night I was just talking to somebody whom i seldom spoke to over the phone and I really thank God for giving me this opportunity to chat with him. No doubt we both live under different circumstances, God managed to bring both of us together that night to talk for almost an hour long. God's miraculous work is wonderful and we should continue to trust in the Lord.

And, I was just talking to some of you guys about going out and sad to say, I am officially broke these days. Sorry for rejecting any meet-ups because once I step out of the house, I got to pay for this and that, transports, foods etc. Whatever you think of.. I got so troubled with spending and sometimes I just feel like locking myself at home and play safe. But I know that it's not going to work at all. God is really is a funny person and when He speaks of something to be done, none of us can stop Him to proceed.

hmmz.. what else? Oh yea.. I've once again screwed up last week's service duty. I thought that I can manage and was really calm at that time.. But it seemed that all hell broke loose and I was shaken.. I believe that I've not really encouraged my Alpha ushers and screwed up everything again.. *sighz*... what a loser... *big L on my forehead*

1 Timothy 3:1-10, The Message
If anyone wants to provide leadership in the church, good! But there are preconditions: a leader must be well-thought -of, committed to his wife, cool and collected, accessible, and hospitable. He must know what he's talking about, not be overfond of wine, not pushy but gentle, not thin-skinned, not money-hungry. He must handle his own affairs well, attentive to his own children and having their respect. For if someone is unable to handle his own affairs, how can he take care of God's church?

The same goes for those who want to be servants in the church: serious, not deceitful, not too free with the bottle, not in it for what they can get out of it. they must be reverent before the mystery of the faith, not using their position to try to run things. Let them prove themselves first. If they show they can do it, take them on.

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5:13 PM