Believe In Your Heart..

Is taking a break the right decision to find back loving connection between us?

It seemed like I've made a wrong choice...

Things has been running dry... Even over the phone...

"Whenever we seek God, we bring ourselves altogether, our flesh, soul and spirit to His altar and meet Him. Intervention can then be done..."

Am I coming back to the heart of reconciliation?

I need hugs and assurance...

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:08 AM

well... I was definitely fascinated by the marriage of Ellen Degeneres and Portia De Rossi.

The love and connection is so important between couples because it is going to determine whether if there is any future between them and I really envied the connection both the couple had.. they may be gay but they deserves the respect from me.. Not trying promote gay here but I appreciate the love connection they've found. . . 3 years may seemed short but this was their crucial and precious moment..

I felt happy for them. (:

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
11:55 AM

Familiar Print...

Suddenly... thought of my past...

past relationships, past experiences

those are the memories that are hard to be erased

seems like an imprint on the ceiling of my heart

how far can i ever be able to reach and wipe it off?...

imprints which runs like a skit

it doesn't have its on "STOP" button... only "REWIND"

music sings by itself the moment when skit runs...

"sarang hae... Oh.. Sarang hae..."

I wondered if he ever exist now

to lie beside me and watch this skit together

how much i've desired to see your face again

how I yearn to rest my heart

how desperate I am to be convinced that both our heart are still connected...

Few days ago,

I happened to recognize your footprint in the forest

how familiar...

how close to my heart...

I wondered if you're walking towards the light

I wondered if the weather has gone bad

I wondered if you are still as strong

I wondered if you remember me...

I wondered....

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
2:22 AM

Year 2010...

Browsing through my previous entries, I remembered writing something like this...

Year 2009: 力不从心....
Year 2010: 值不值得呢？?

FYI, Year 2010 is a special year as I am going to celebrate my very first 20th birthday. Thinking about my past, earlier this year, I was contemplating about growth and i wondered if time could have just paused at age 19th and that's it... but no... we're all created to grow up, to grow young, into maturity by age, and hopefully grow old with wisdom... Year 20 seemed like I've grown so much, hmmmz, 2 decade much? that's alot, I tell you... imagine you would have done your time calculation, you've lived in this world more "xxxx" hours and there are more to come...

Year 2010 seems to be a special year for me. I do not know what has installed for me this year but I felt that something big and happening is going to happen and it will change me for the rest of my life... what could it be? school graduation? further studies at other fields? new member in family? less 1 member in family? break-up/patch up? new guy friend? new girlfriend? I don't know...

I was reading through elaine's blog and I felt so touched by her simple words... Parents worked their lived off just to provide the best for me to study in good institutions. they have sacrificed so much for me... who else could have done the same thing for me? close to none... and my grandma, I guess she has done her best in raising her child to become who they are today... it's time for her to enjoy life now and get some good rest... If ever I could say a vow, I promise that I would take care of her as much as I can. She is old now... ...

人之初性本善..("v")("v")
12:12 PM